Looking Back, Thinking Now, Believing Forward

Sometimes I feel the adrenaline

Coursing though my veins

Sometimes I feel like a specimen

Under every doctors careful lens

Like when they walk on the fence

Prescribing and everyday prescription regimen

I feel like an ever going battery

I go by in such a flurry

My life speeds by it is blurry

I go till I can't go on

Despite the usual resulting pain

Adding another link in the chain

Sometimes I feel the adrenaline

Coursing through my veins

Through every cavity it drains

Pacing back and forth arguing with the doctor

Talking on the phone making comparisons

I feel the adrenaline my mind moves fast

My body hurts at the end of the day

I feel so tired

For years I struggled to find out what was going on

Docs called me a hypochondriac like I didn't understand

What's this? Whats that? I asked

Met with blank stares my tests came back fine

For years they tell me its all in my head

Or that it was anxiety

Half the time I couldn't believe what they said to me

I tell them I can't breathe they give me meds

That don't help me. Why can't they see?

They say asthma and send me on my way

Not looking any further than the icing on the cake

All along it was the zebra

With its hooves pounding behind me

I mount him and I ride him

Until I learn to live

The adrenaline and I

I am zebra strong

My body is stretchy like a giant rubber band

It wasn't what was planned

But as a zebra I take my stand

I can fold and I can bend

People don't understand the pain I'm in

I look at them with a grin

It isn't easy dealing with something invisible within

But I will survive, and I will grow

I will fight for those who know

What it's like to be a zebra

With the adrenaline coursing through your veins

Adrenaline in the heat of the zebra

It was the perfect storm

Adrenaline in the heat of the zebra

It was the perfect storm

And I stop and I see a genuine light ahead of me

It's God's son Jesus coming to rule

He will soon end all the suffering in this wicked world

And I stand there thinking

He is just as sweet and clear

As the sunlight through the pines

I see this and my heart it reminds

So many times, I find myself looking back through the muck

On my back a rut sack hiking through the woods

Picking up sticks and flowers and other goods

By my sides walks a zebra

My trusted and loyal companion

No longer am I plagued by that long ago illness

I brush my hand lightly along his black and white frame

I smile glad that I am well again

I am thinking now and looking back

At my life that has passed

It all went so fast

I look forward now to a life

That will forever last

And by and by I will reflect on the moment

I glimpsed the sunshine through the pine

Shining so sweet and so fine

As I stood as two roads diverged in the wood

And I walk the path not many feet have walked

It is narrow and it is cramped

But the sun shines like a giant lamp

Guiding my steps through the cold and the damp

To the light, I am looking forward

We all look back and smile at the simple fact

We all are thinking now

Will things get better when and how?

We gaze forward into the future like a untrained viewer

And It will come sooner than we think

Looking back, thinking now, believing forward

Into the new world, here we go!

Looking back, thinking now, believing forward

Into the new world!

Soon it will be here!

Soon It will be here!