So Many Tears

I shall not fear no man but God

Though I walk through the valley of death

I shed so many tears (If I should die before I wake)

Please God, walk with me (Grab a **** and take me to Heaven)

Back in elementary, I thrived on misery

Left me alone, I grew up amongst a dyin' breed

Inside my mind, couldn't find a place to rest

Until I got that "thug life" tatted on my chest

Tell me, can you feel me?

I'm not livin' in the past, you wanna last

Be the first to blast, remember Kato

No longer with us, he's deceased

Call on the sirens, seen him murdered in the streets

Now rest in peace

Is there Heaven for a G? Remember me

So many homies in the cemetery, shed so many tears

Ah, I suffered through the years and shed so many tears

Lord, I lost so many peers and shed so many tears

Now that I'm strugglin' in this business, by any means

Label me greedy, gettin' green, but seldom seen

And fuck the world 'cause I'm cursed, I'm havin' visions

Of leavin' here in a hearse, God, can you feel me?

Take me away from all the pressure and all the pain

Show me some happiness again, I'm goin' blind

I spend my time in this cell, ain't livin' well

I know my destiny is Hell, where did I fail?

My life is in denial and when I die

Baptized in eternal fire, shed so many tears

Lord, I suffered through the years and shed so many tears

Lord, I lost so many peers and shed so many tears

Now, I'm lost and I'm weary, so many tears

I'm suicidal, so don't stand near me

My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer

To embrace an early death, now there's nothin' left

There was no mercy on the streets, I couldn't rest

I'm barely standin', 'bout to go to pieces, screamin' peace

And though my soul was deleted, I couldn't see it

I had my mind full of demons tryin' to break free

They planted seeds and they hatched, sparkin' the flame

Inside my brain, like a match, such a dirty game

No memories, just a misery

Paintin' a picture of my enemies killin' me in my sleep

Will I survive till the mornin' to see the sun?

Please Lord, forgive me for my sins 'cause here I come

Lord, I suffered through the years and shed so many tears

God, I lost so many peers

And Lord knows I tried, been a witness to homicide

Seen drive-by's takin' lives, little kids die

Wonder why as I walk by, broken-hearted as I glance at the chalk line

Gettin' high, this ain't the life for me

I wanna change, but ain't no future bright for me

I'm stuck in the game

I'm trapped inside a maze

See this Tanqueray influenced me to gettin' crazy, disillusioned lately

I've been really wantin' babies

So I could see a part of me that wasn't always shady

Don't trust my lady 'cause she's a product of this poison

I'm hearin' noises, think she's fuckin' all my boys, can't take no more

I'm fallin' to the floor, beggin' for the Lord to let me in to Heaven's door

Shed so many tears

Lord, I've lost so many years and shed so many tears

I lost so many peers and shed so many tears

Lord, I suffered through the years and shed so many tears

God, I lost so many peers and shed so many tears