YOU NEVER FORGET YOUR FIRST TIME...

Uhm, the first time I was heartbroken

I was fifteen

And he was two years older than me

And I thought he was the coolest guy in the world because he could drive

He absolutely ripped my heart out

And still, to this day, I don't know if it was love

And I don't know if I've ever felt love

And I don't think I will know until the day I die

The first time I ever lost somebody super close to me was my Aunt Patty

She got cancer when I was really young

She fought hard, but ended up passing

And I remember in her final days, she was really skinny and sickly

Talkin' 'bout how precious life was and how she didn't wanna go

Really put everything in perspective for me

She was younger than I am now

Y'know, I remember the first time I got the news that I was gonna be a dad

While I was actually landing in Dallas for my great-grandmother's funeral

I remember landing and getting a text from Koa's mom

Just being like, "Hey, call me immediately, like, I have to talk to you"

And, uh, she was like, "I'm pregnant, we're, we're gonna have a kid"

And the mixed emotions, I can't even begin to explain, like

Just losing one of the strongest members of our family

And, also, gaining a member of the family

I remember the first time I had to make a big move was when I was movin' from Sydney to L.A.

With my older brother LAROI

And I remember, at first, I was just like, really, really angry with LAROI and mom

Just like, losing it, 'cause I was like, moving away from all of my friends, cousins, like all my relatives, and everything

Like, it hurt, you know

But I realized that if they didn't move me out, I probably would've been a completely different person

And like I woulda been raised completely differently and whatever

But yeah, that was my first time