emails i can’t send

It's times like these, wish I had a time machine

So I could see what you did October 13th at 10:15

Were you really asleep? Were you lying to me and the family?

There's no us in us when I'm lacking trust

You wanna discuss, ugh, you disgust me

Don't make me cuss you out, why'd you let me down?

Don't say sorry now

And thanks to you, I, I can't love right

I get nice guys and villainize them

Read their texts like they're having sex right now

Scared I'll find out that it's true and

If I do, then I blame you for every worst that

I assume when I'm forty-five, someone calls me their wife

And he fucks our lives in one selfish night, don't think I'll

Find forgiveness as fast as Mom did and

God, I love you but you're such a dipshit

Please fucking fix this

'Cause you were all I looked up to

Now I can't even look at you